Kingdoms Fall

I've never been a fan of grief.

I liken grief to be like watching the intricate kingdom that I have built slowly burn to the ground.
I don't
...like watching my hopes and dreams turn to dust.

But the truth is that God burns down kingdoms for a purpose.
Perhaps, I thought my kingdoms to be greater than His.
I usually avoid watching the process.
It is just too painful for me.

But in the process of running,
This fleeing from the my kingdom in ruins,
I miss a crucial part of the story.

I miss His arms around me as each foundation turns to ashes.
I miss His words of hope in my despair.
But most of all,
I miss the part where
He clears away my broken kingdom

...And sets a place for me to find comfort
In His.

So with this being said,
I am okay with
Watching what I thought i loved
Burn to flames.