Divine Connections

I read today that we can rid ourselves of an addiction by simply starving it.

Sure, the first few days will be the most difficult to endure, yet I think there is some truth to this. This week I decided that I rely too much on connection with others. I like to believe that connection is a beautiful thing. God created it beautiful. I try to seek it in many of my relationships.

The problem comes when I cross the boundaries of others in order to feed my need for connection. Not only do I cross boundaries, but I often deny my own boundaries that are put in place to guard my heart. It is altogether unhealthy.

I love to be vulnerable
But
I cannot convince people to want to be vulnerable with me.
At least...not in a genuine way.

I don't want to manipulate my way into connection no matter how much I think I need it.
I need to seek a greater connection with God and trust that He will place those deep connections on my journey wherever He takes me.

Joyce Meyer says that we should pray for 'Divine Connections.'
After reading this, I find it to be a unique concept.
I want friendships that are connected through a passion for Christ.
Today, I took a student to coffee with me and we discussed what God was teaching us.

I had so much fun talking about our Heavenly Father.

This week I decided to give up facebook. It seems to be a common thing to do nowadays. Yet I don't like to do things without a purpose. I realized that I was so consumed with keeping up with my friends from home that it was hindering my ministry here. This social networking thing claims to connect

...Yet leaves me so disconnected.

Yet even on my first and second day away from it,
I struggled to give it up.
I rationalized that maybe if I only check it once a day.
I admit,

I failed on the first day.

...and on the second day.

I think this signifies that it is an addiction.

I am so glad that God teaches us through our failures because I find that when I try to give things up, I fail miserably. Yet through my failures, God is blessing me by continuing to teach me through them.

I need to let go of my grip, my unhealthy need to form connections and give them to Him.
I want to have the faith to be able to say,

"God, I believe that you can form some amazing Divine connections in my life."

Perhaps this trust will help me rely less on my
...addiction to facebook :)